My blog, my escape.

She asked, "I don't know why he never asks me about you."

I don't know either. I honestly do not know. We used to be so close. It's like we're strangers now. I was looking at my saved messages and I saw his text saying that we've been close since Year 1 and somehow we just drifted. He's aware of it but he never did anything to save this friendship.

I cannot handle the tension when people leave me. I hate it when people leave me. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO JUST STAY. This time I'm leaving too. Even though every atom of my body misses the person I used to adore.


Other updates on my ever so self-dramatic life:
- I tried to schedule a day to meet WB but it didn't work out. I know I've never been a priority to him but it still hurts. I mean he was supposed to tell me if he was free on that day. But at 4pm, an hour before I got off work, I texted him.

- We're slowly drifting apart. I can't get through to you anymore. I don't mind that we don't text that often now. It has happened before. But this time, the conversations are getting so dry. Why.


I am definitely missing the wrong person for all the wrong reasons. Life has just been very very draining, trying to please everyone, dealing with my financial crisis. I know I can't have everything my way, I can't have everyone stay. There will always be someone leaving, one who has left. But why can't that happen. Is being happy such a rare occurrence.

I love you. Always have, always will.

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