It's been one hell of a roller coaster here. Cliche but true.

Desires, mistakes (both personal and work related), drifting.

I'm sorry for doing what I did. But then again I'm not. "He is physically there, not emotionally there." From my point of view, we're nothing more than friends. People would say it's because we were really together for only 2 months. But are you trying to say that the process wasn't genuine as well?

8 days left before I depart and I'm having mixed feelings.

+

I get to reunite with my friends and family

-
It's so crowded, complicated and ugly in Singapore. People are so shallow and polluted, that it makes me want to cry just thinking about it.

Other than that, I like the fact that my room is fully air-conditioned, I don't need to take transport. Everything is so simple here. But I do know that I have to return. I avoided George ever since the new interns' arrival because technically, I was close to him and it might hurt to say goodbye if I still was. It has been extremely tough with my mistakes and all; forgetting buggy requests, not following up etc. But nothing, and I mean nothing beats the existence of 3 others in the room. I am a front line staff. I have to socialise every minute of my day at work and when I get back, I have to do the same?! I'm exhausted! And what do I get? "Sherina's always using her phone, and not socialising." Well piss off.

7th February, Thursday

Met Ridhwan in Male in the morning and had breakfast at the same place. Then we looked for souvenirs which was totally tiring.

Super good chicken submarine

8th-9th February

Public Area attendant with Ibbe and Jamsheed

10th February, Sunday

Laundry. Dinner with my trainer at Bodu Huraa.

11th February, Monday

Decided to clear my 10 days of fasting.

Camwhore moment

12th February, Tuesday

Oh irony, I had to stop fasting. Brazilian (Clarice) and Russian (Maria) roommates arrived. Had dinner at Doctor's house

14th February, Thursday

Clearly nothing from him.

15th February, Friday

I made a glitch; forgot to get back to the guest and he was so upset sigh mistake after mistake

16th February, Saturday

Off day: Finished my report and watched Arrow with Y.

17th February, Sunday

Went to the spa to get some bands with stones because I am a stone-whore, and Skyped with Miss Gladys.

The sky homaigod

My breakthrough!! I managed to answer the Netma question that the others couldn't answer ^^ My manager was like, "Guys!! She's a trainee and she knows!! She's a trainee!!!"

18th February, Monday

Gym + Skype session with the family. Watched Arrow with Y again.

Anwar called me down at 11pm when I was half-asleep. And then he had to go to work so Mezo accompanied me. I jokingly told him that I wanted pizza and he actually ordered it for me. It took 2 hours to come but Anwar took 2 hours to the end of his shift as well. So we slacked until like 2:30am omg and I had work at 7:30am.

19th February, Tuesday

Morning call from Mezo. And finally contacted my Liaison Officer, Thomas Lazzerine. Holy shit, M said that he loved me. And in my head, I was like, my boy doesn't even tell me this kind of things T_______T

I slept at 8:30pm I AM SUCH A WINNER!!!!

20th February, Wednesday
I was supposed to end at 4:30pm

4pm-5pm+: "Sherina! Go receive the guests at the jetty." 2 VIP boats and another boat from Landaa Giraavaru.

Supervisor: I want you to stay inside and do not come out of the office. We have to end our shift. Don't even take orders from the manager.

5pm-6pm+: Manager comes in and rushes me to do a check in. I wanted to tell her that I couldn't but I am too soft-hearted to say no. So it was a VVIP guest and they had so many unusual questions, comments and requests.

While doing the room orientation, my supervisor found me. And he was there throughout the whole thing. The guest was making a complaint and I was really tired and flooded with so many requests that I've already followed up on. So I didn't follow up on the last complaint and when I got back to the office...

"Why didn't you follow up?! You should have said this this this. What did the guests say? ... What?! Did you know that was a VVIP?! And they made you do the check in?! ... Did you even once tell the manager that I didn't let you out?! ... You know what! I wasn't here, I never heard what you said. You tell the manager all this." So he just left me with all these. I ended up ending work two hours later than usual. I held back my tears until I reached the room. And then the usual break down moment. I think it's my second time crying since I've been here so it's quite alright ah I guess hahahahaha

Argued with Y. I mean like I ended work at 6:50pm, I obviously have no time to catch the 7:00pm boat  to Male right omg. So he just deleted the TVD that he downloaded for me in the afternoon ugh.

21st February, Thursday

My supervisor treated me like a small kid by making me take down any request I get, on a piece of paper. Just because I keep making glitches because of my forgetfulness :(

Oh and Y downloaded TVD for me again hehehehehe yay

Today
Tried to avoid my roommates by hiding in the drinking room. But I couldn't. So we went to Bodu Huraa for a swim. Then I went to the gym. The guys were playing volleyball and I got pissed with Anwar and Mez cause they annoyed me when I was having my dinner there.

Clubmed

Clarice, Tiffany

Slacked with Y in his room.

xx