It's been one hell of a roller coaster here. Cliche but true.

Desires, mistakes (both personal and work related), drifting.

I'm sorry for doing what I did. But then again I'm not. "He is physically there, not emotionally there." From my point of view, we're nothing more than friends. People would say it's because we were really together for only 2 months. But are you trying to say that the process wasn't genuine as well?

8 days left before I depart and I'm having mixed feelings.

+

I get to reunite with my friends and family

-
It's so crowded, complicated and ugly in Singapore. People are so shallow and polluted, that it makes me want to cry just thinking about it.

Other than that, I like the fact that my room is fully air-conditioned, I don't need to take transport. Everything is so simple here. But I do know that I have to return. I avoided George ever since the new interns' arrival because technically, I was close to him and it might hurt to say goodbye if I still was. It has been extremely tough with my mistakes and all; forgetting buggy requests, not following up etc. But nothing, and I mean nothing beats the existence of 3 others in the room. I am a front line staff. I have to socialise every minute of my day at work and when I get back, I have to do the same?! I'm exhausted! And what do I get? "Sherina's always using her phone, and not socialising." Well piss off.

7th February, Thursday

Met Ridhwan in Male in the morning and had breakfast at the same place. Then we looked for souvenirs which was totally tiring.

Super good chicken submarine

8th-9th February

Public Area attendant with Ibbe and Jamsheed

10th February, Sunday

Laundry. Dinner with my trainer at Bodu Huraa.

11th February, Monday

Decided to clear my 10 days of fasting.

Camwhore moment

12th February, Tuesday

Oh irony, I had to stop fasting. Brazilian (Clarice) and Russian (Maria) roommates arrived. Had dinner at Doctor's house

14th February, Thursday

Clearly nothing from him.

15th February, Friday

I made a glitch; forgot to get back to the guest and he was so upset sigh mistake after mistake

16th February, Saturday

Off day: Finished my report and watched Arrow with Y.

17th February, Sunday

Went to the spa to get some bands with stones because I am a stone-whore, and Skyped with Miss Gladys.

The sky homaigod

My breakthrough!! I managed to answer the Netma question that the others couldn't answer ^^ My manager was like, "Guys!! She's a trainee and she knows!! She's a trainee!!!"

18th February, Monday

Gym + Skype session with the family. Watched Arrow with Y again.

Anwar called me down at 11pm when I was half-asleep. And then he had to go to work so Mezo accompanied me. I jokingly told him that I wanted pizza and he actually ordered it for me. It took 2 hours to come but Anwar took 2 hours to the end of his shift as well. So we slacked until like 2:30am omg and I had work at 7:30am.

19th February, Tuesday

Morning call from Mezo. And finally contacted my Liaison Officer, Thomas Lazzerine. Holy shit, M said that he loved me. And in my head, I was like, my boy doesn't even tell me this kind of things T_______T

I slept at 8:30pm I AM SUCH A WINNER!!!!

20th February, Wednesday
I was supposed to end at 4:30pm

4pm-5pm+: "Sherina! Go receive the guests at the jetty." 2 VIP boats and another boat from Landaa Giraavaru.

Supervisor: I want you to stay inside and do not come out of the office. We have to end our shift. Don't even take orders from the manager.

5pm-6pm+: Manager comes in and rushes me to do a check in. I wanted to tell her that I couldn't but I am too soft-hearted to say no. So it was a VVIP guest and they had so many unusual questions, comments and requests.

While doing the room orientation, my supervisor found me. And he was there throughout the whole thing. The guest was making a complaint and I was really tired and flooded with so many requests that I've already followed up on. So I didn't follow up on the last complaint and when I got back to the office...

"Why didn't you follow up?! You should have said this this this. What did the guests say? ... What?! Did you know that was a VVIP?! And they made you do the check in?! ... Did you even once tell the manager that I didn't let you out?! ... You know what! I wasn't here, I never heard what you said. You tell the manager all this." So he just left me with all these. I ended up ending work two hours later than usual. I held back my tears until I reached the room. And then the usual break down moment. I think it's my second time crying since I've been here so it's quite alright ah I guess hahahahaha

Argued with Y. I mean like I ended work at 6:50pm, I obviously have no time to catch the 7:00pm boat  to Male right omg. So he just deleted the TVD that he downloaded for me in the afternoon ugh.

21st February, Thursday

My supervisor treated me like a small kid by making me take down any request I get, on a piece of paper. Just because I keep making glitches because of my forgetfulness :(

Oh and Y downloaded TVD for me again hehehehehe yay

Today
Tried to avoid my roommates by hiding in the drinking room. But I couldn't. So we went to Bodu Huraa for a swim. Then I went to the gym. The guys were playing volleyball and I got pissed with Anwar and Mez cause they annoyed me when I was having my dinner there.

Clubmed

Clarice, Tiffany

Slacked with Y in his room.

xx

19th-24th January
Front Office supervisory role with Thalhath. 20th January (Sunday) was the day that I broke the buggy rules.

20th- George bought one each for us

22nd- Zumbo :>

25 January, Friday
Went to Male in the morning to have breakfast with Ridhwan. Then went back to the resort in time for lunch with Tiffany and George. We slacked in the room until I decided to go to the gym. Dinner, then off to Male with George.

He brought me to HIH (Huhule Island Hotel) because I was complaining the whole week about having pizza mwehehe

He told me about the death of his first love. One cut on the wrist was all it took. The cause of his insomnia.

Breakfast

'Chili oil'!

BBQ Chicken

Margherita

 

26th-27th January
Front Office supervisory role with Thalhath again. Shaan hugged everyone on Sunday and gave us a can of Redbull!

28th January, Monday
Room attendant ^^ Hahahaha I look so happy omg

Monthly meeting

I was the only girl out of 37 guys in the room

Yoko

29th January, Tuesday
The Interns Focus Group that killed me. My roommate doesn't even know that I cried and I see no point in telling her

30th January, Wednesday
Spent the whole day doing my powerpoint presentation and watched 27 Dresses again

31st January-1st February
Room attendant (AM and PM service)

This stupid Shaan left for Landa Giraavaru (the other Four Seasons resort in Maldives) a day after I took this picture with him

Shaan!!

My eyecandy mwehehe ok the picture doesn't do justice

2nd-3rd February
Coordinator- super fun because it was so stressful with the calls and all. Went to the gym after work

George bought this for us!

My request from Chef Simon ^^

4th February, Monday
It was one of my supervisors' birthday!!!!!!!! He bought Redbull for some of us and I got an extra Toblerone because I'm special

What I do at work: Play Sudoku

Nimal

Cute or what. And he is the first Bob I know of

5th February, Tuesday
Runner- omg this job requires major physical labour. Mubarik bought Redbull for me! It's like we live on Redbull here

Today
Woke up to a sore throat and my whole left arm aches like hell. Did university stuff. Shall shop online now instead of resting hehehe

Holy. Shit.

I just broke down for 10 minutes. It was so unexpected and sudden.

- Okay actually the main reason is: work

Had a briefing with my learning manager and Tiffany just now.

Points for me:" I talked to the Front Office managers and they said that you have very weak (the emphasis on this word was extremely exaggerated) product knowledge. I even tested you that time on the buggy ride, remember I asked questions? I agree with them. You have very weak (emphasis once again) product knowledge. They say that you don't ask enough questions. You just know about it when you have to know about it."

1) "you don't ask enough questions"- How am I supposed to ask questions when majority of the time, managers come out when they ask me to go to the jetty to wave and clap for the guests during their departures and arrivals respectively. Managers are never there to see me take down notes or ask questions at reception okay.

"And you failed your buggy ride terribly! You were supposed to turn around when you're talking to me! Z and T do that when they're talking to me on the buggies you know! You even crashed me in the bushes! I told the Program Committee (all the managers, directors and most importantly, the Resort Manager) about your buggy driving."

2) "supposed to turn around when you're talking"- How would I know. I wanted to. I had the choice of turning and risk getting warned for driving the buggy without looking at the road OR I could have turned my head slightly and focus on the road and get reprimanded for not facing the guests when interacting with them. WELL I CLEARLY HAD TO CHOOSE ONE OF THE ABOVE, WHICH I DID. I took the wrong risk. So be it.

3) "I told the Program Committee (all the managers, directors and most importantly, the Resort Manager) about your buggy driving."- You have got to be kidding me bro. I am just an intern. What is the point of telling the upper management about my reckless driving.

You have no idea how demoralising and degrading it is and how much worse it is when the other intern actually has a good point from the managers and you have none. You have no idea.

- A best friend who doesn't give a shit. (haha this is really ambiguous)

- A boyfriend whom I haven't heard from for quite some time.

When he asked what he did to make me sad (in reference to G telling him not to make me sad), I should have told him everything. Every single thing. "You don't care like you used to anymore. You said that you would never do anything to hurt me. You said that we would keep in contact every day. You wouldn't download Skype. You have never bothered initiating a call. You have never said that you missed me." And you still have the nerve to ask what you did to make me feel sad.

- The locals keep pestering me and I can't take it anymore. My good friend (not anymore), Jixxxx, has been WhatsApping me every single day and I'm so sick of it. I'm not even close to you, please give me some personal space.

An anonymous guy miraculously got my number and has been persistently texting me ever since even though I ignore him.

The Mexican guy thinks that it's a good idea to engage in coitus and is being a sensitive girl because I haven't been 'nice' to him since.

A guy I have been eye-fucking with every time we meet. It's like we have this love-hate relationship in real life and on social media and we're both playing each other to see who gets hurt more.

Locals who ask me to go out with them and talking to me on Facebook chat, messaging me, every single second of the day.

Worst part is 'having a boyfriend' doesn't hinder their persistence. Not a single one of them. Even the coitus guy.

- Got reprimanded by a manager for using my phone during break time. "You use your phone all the time. I should confiscate it." "I don't even use it during work." "Yeah but you're not allowed to bring it to work." "I don't even bring it to work all the time. I leave it in my room!" "No you don't! You always have it in your pocket!" LIKE YOU WOULD KNOW MY DEAR, LIKE YOU WOULD KNOW.

- I was pissed off by what happened above hence my reckless driving. My name was mentioned in the briefing for breaking 5 buggy rules, caught by the security guard. Letter was sent to Program Committee.

- Few days later, the Director of Engineering wasn't happy that I have been driving the buggy too fast. He has been giving me death glares ever since.

- A manager caught me for going to the cafeteria after gym. I cooled down until I was certain that I was sweat-free and stink-free. The people I ate with didn't even know that I went to the gym please.
On a ☀ note, I realised that Limin has always been the one who has contacted me throughout my stay here (obviously with the exception of a few days). For 2 months, she survived dealing with my nonsense, be it good or bad. I honestly thought that Zhiqiang would be the one that I would contact every day. I was totally wrong. I don't know how she does it but yay.

10q to others for being there for me too.

Oh and to 'the best friend that doesn't give a shit', thanks for putting in the effort to keep the conversation going with the 'lol' and the 'hahaha' because you think that it is such a great statement for me to reply to.

Don't go all "Your life isn't as bad as one who has to deal with the arrest of a close one." Within a span of less than two weeks, I got involved with managers and the upper management. I can't take it anymore. A bad day is a bad period.

If anyone realises that I switched the word 'death' to 'arrest', huge kudos to you. l0l im srz

Summary:

Saturday, 13 January
12am-8am, graveyard shift.

Sunday, 14 January
Played Top 40 hits at the reception. Hahaha we are so not allowed to do that. Y accompanied me until around 4am and called reception to annoy me asshole.

Slept from 9am to 6:01pm!!!!!!! Eh wait that's only 9 hours and 1 minute. Okay no big deal then.

Monday, 15 January (private blog)
Funny guest story! But I can't blog about it so I will put it on my private blog!

Tuesday, 16 January
Ended work at around 8:20 and rushed back to the room to change to catch the 8:30am boat to Male. Went with Tiffany, Athens and George.

On the way there, the engine broke down. Hen hao. On the way back, the current was so strong that people puked. All of us were seasick. Double hen hao.

My buddy :)

George, Athens

 

Breakfast

Took the boat to...

 

Vilin Gili!!!

Chio tummy. Not.

I'm a princess ~

My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard

Dinner x

Local after-meal snack

Went to the drinking room to slack.

Thursday, 17 January
After our training, Tiffany and I went to the television room to catch Final Destination 4!!!!!

Today
So Tiffany's in the clinic resting because she got the stomach flu. Pretty scared that I've caught it from her. So now I'm bored. So bored that I'm searching for the album artwork for my songs.