as quoted by 500 days of summer: "just because she likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate."

i was kind of hoping. we hit it off. i can barely complete my sentences omg i have to stop hitting 'backspace'!!!!

let me try. okay so i've been waiting for someone to. no. so i've been hoping. no!!!! so i've been waiting for someone to ask me out and it hasn't happened. and i'm so upset and outraged that i'm venting it out on people around me.

i don't feel like going out with anyone or talking to anyone else much less replying their texts or idk i'm just so sick of waiting. i've been making excuses or delaying dates with my friends. it's easy. "oh i have work." "sorry, i don't even have time for my other friends. let's meet in august ok." and in august, i'll conjure up another lie.

well technically i'm not lying. i'm really tired from working 5-6 days a week and 10 hours straight at that. but it helps me forget, more than usual. i'm glad.

hay back from europe. never liked it in here

have been reading murakamis' books and found some pretty good quotes but i was too involved in the book that i forgot to take them down. makes me feel really uneasy. like something you can reflect so clearly on but you abandoned it, waiting to be read again

i can't wait to tell you how it went; your criticism on my terrible judgement of books

ciao bella

i just really really want to be a better person but no matter how hard i try, i'm still so mean, my words don't seem to come out the way i want them to. am i meant to be heartless and boring. how do i end this

4 June, wednesday
was supposed to go to zouk w azra and her friend claudia but we ended up going to simpang bedok for supper because we cool like that

7 june, saturday
befriended someone at work, it was some event thing and i was rly bored

8 june, sunday
thank goodness i had someone to keep me entertained at work

10 june, tuesday
work, met shu and kitty and sharon for lunch at Providore and dessert at St. Marc Cafe after then met shafique for dinner at simpang bedok (ok actually i just drank)

we were entitled to discounts at Providore and St. Marc because shu and kitty work there (respectively)

11 june, wednesday
zouk, actually it was really random because jeremie just asked if i wanted to join him and his friends. so i dragged amelya along and apparently gen and her friends tagged along as well. omg it was quite annoying but still fun hahaha so anyway met amel and jem for dinner at Standing Sushi Bar first.

okay i was rly cranky cause my brothers took money from my wallet w/t my permission then i got lost trying to find the stupid restaurant. hate getting lost in heels.

this was the only good one

while waiting for the rest, i saw aaron then in the club, i saw selene and a few other people who i didn't manage to talk to. accompanied the rest to drink. 

gen k high alr

see zouk sucked; so bright for what

AMERYA

ok i'm going to try to rmb their names:
chris, junting and of course jem

gen k, mel, valerie, daphne (i think)

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12 june, thursday
stalked ellie goulding at changi airport and ended up being 40 mins late for the family dinner at Aquamarine. the standard dropped, by a lot.

Is it weird that the person that I currently miss the most, - , is too busy for me. It's like the early years again.


Got my airport job back. going to work from tuesday to sunday this week. but my pay is lesser now!!! and my cousin who's working there is attached to someone there so it's gon' be weird.


17-19 may, sat-mon
KL with parents

1. kenny roger's, visited relatives and gu je gave me 100 RM hehe yay, + chatted with celine and nicholas a little, checked in, spa with mom, slept, dinner at sushi tei, caught some street performance

2. bfast by myself at the hotel, went to the pool, klcc, parents bought chicken rice for me for dinner while i stayed in the hotel reading my book

my must have chicken rice + tofu

3. Had the best chicken feet ever, and worst liu sha bao haha haha haha

21st may, wed
met joi; pizza at the merry men (which was pretty good!), had some mocktails + garlic battered mushrooms at some pub at clarke quay, sat by the river n___n

22 may, thurs
Met up with amelya and we don't seem to get why it's so important for those who are attached to want so much for us to be attached as well. It got me thinking; could it because they're craving for single-hood and they want us to suffer the same fate they do, or is it because they think we're unhappy without a significant other.

Because it gets really annoying. Every single time I bring up a guy's name, they give that smirk or remark that I didn't even ask for.

"i don't even like him"
"yeah, sure sure"
"he's seeing someone else"
"but they're not together yet /smirks"

oh.my.god. do they think that we are not happy without a significant other. i admit, the loneliness is a little different from when friends aren't around. but it's bearable and most importantly temporary. so can they stop rushing me into this whole getting attached thing.


But anyway I've been trying to get to know this guy. nothing big and all but i kind of pictured myself with him and i couldn't? i kind of cringed and thought about the past. the thought of having to go through all that agony again was such a turn off so i shut the idea out of my head, easy as that.

but then again i fall for almost every guy who's nice to me right -______- disgusted w myself for that bleh

caught Bad Neighbours (quite alright), dinner at bangkok jam (at plaza singapura), coldstone for some ice-cream

23 may, fri
met babz. i mean yx, amira and azra for dinner at Toss and Turn.

went to zouk with jw, karmaine and azra. we were supposed to go to 1 Altitude, which has more class but idk how we ended up at zouk. - hahahahaha but it was an alright night, with new company. the music sucked even though it was dj ghetto and he only got better when we were about to leave cause jw wanted to.

27 may, tues
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28 may, weds
met shu + kitty; selfish gene cafe, stateland, omakase burger (at wisma), koh grill & sushi bar

can't believe i only spent around $40!!!! hahaha because we shared everything, except brunch

selfish gene cafe, mediocre but scrambled eggs were rly good
(shu + kitty even ordered a seperate one to share!)

worst waffle i had in my life
my strawberry lemonade was too sweet eck

the look of disapproval when i was told to randomly touch my hair

SO GOOOOOOOD

nothing to say because this is just obvious

30 may, fri
my adventure time films came in the mail!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS SO HAPPY I LOVE AD. TIME!!!! and before that, ct drew smth from adventure time for me!!

got ct to follow me to do something -. wanted to try Artistry but it was closed. so we went to Bugis Plus for dinner then had waffles then round 3 with her friend, Nicole, at Miam Miam which we waited an hour for.

next two weeks are going to be pretty packed with work, partying, ellie goulding and packing! bz bz bz bz bz ugh blogging takes up so much of my time


anyway he (-) got his results today and he told me about it, so happy for him rly hope he gets on the dean list man


plus some random stuff

r.berry and white choc. tim tam fel got for me from sydney

cedele w parents (1)
lemongrass cake. tasted like tomyum

cedele w parents (2)

moms'

newton w fam (1)

newton w fam (2)

HAHA THIS CAT IS LIKE: halp im too fat to get up

tcc @ funan w parents (1)
egg yolk on spag bolognese
soft shell crab pasta

tcc @ funan w parents (2)
this was so good but it's really small and so expensive!