18 March, Monday
American Club.

I cried. Not sure what it was about, but the planner states that I did, so I did. Guess it had something to do with the boy, but I doubt it was anything serious because it was just my pre-menstrual symptoms acting up. Which can only mean one thing: my emotions were a fraud

19 March, Tuesday
Slab with Andrea + zq. She kept feeding me with fruits, cereal and yogurt n_n

Had a short walk before sending him off to the bus stop.

Summary: Conjured up one of the more serious issues with the boy. And I thought he would end things off. I guess things didn't end. And as G has noticed, my feelings might have returned.

20 March, Wednesday
- Bought some cookies from Pique Nique for Amelya
- NYDC for lunch
- Walked to Cineleisure to catch Warm Bodies
- Ice-cream @ Cold Stone

21 March, Thursday
American Club + Slab with Andrea and Jojo bee

22 March, Friday
Met Chewz and Kaiyi!!! ^^ Had lunch at Avenue Bistro @ Cineleisure. Food was alright but the service was so bad.

Exchanged her Ray Ban for my Police

Walked around, figured out that my G-Shock was never spoiled from the start.

Had Smoothie King because we are healthy people. Not really, but it's so good, my new found love. What is Boost to me now.

Dessert time @ Dean and Deluca!!!!

HER HAIR SO COOL ~~~

Croissant

Berries & Flap Jack

Sour Cherry Tart

Pool after such a long time. Won CT by luck because I really suck at pool la.

23 March, Saturday
Slab with Jolene + zq. Bought food for my dear girl because she was broke and hungry. Gladys came down for a short while and she took (and edited) this picture so that I could put it on my blog hehehehehehehe

24 March, Sunday
Slab with Trix and Syaza. Asnita came down!!!!!!!! Didn't get to take a picture with her! She has been working at Famous Amos @ Parkway Parade all along!

Dinner with family (except NS boy) at Pappa Rich.

Today
Headed down to SIM with my Danial. Met up with Kaiyi and kitty to submit our documents! Hahahaha kitty self-invited herself, so cute. Went to Katong to karaoke @ Teo Heng.

Slab with Jeremie. Gen came down and she is so skinny now!!

Another hectic week ahead. So so afraid of Good Friday @ the slab + weekends at the country club.






Mom said that she wonders how my friends can stand me, because she can't. Which gets me thinking, "Yeah, how is that possible."

- I am a snob
- I complain and judge people when I'm in no position to do so (Quoted from the boy: You don't like so many people. He also said that I like to complain T-T)
- I tweet + blog-hint about people
- How did I even get someone to like me, I really don't get him
- I am materialistic
- I'm rude to my parents, well basically my family and I have the tendency to tell them off
- I have anger management issues
- I can't do house chores for nuts (to be honest, the room attendants in Maldives said that I was slow and well, I just suck at sweeping)
- I think that my pride is more important than reconnecting the bond between Raiyan and I


But I'm trying, I'm really trying

+ I've kept the correcting of people's grammar, spelling and pronunciation to a minimal (or at least I try. But honestly, can you not use a past tense if there is a 'did' in the sentence)
+ When I was young, I used to show off to my cousins about all the things I get from my dad. Aren't I working for my stuff now? Do you see me shoving my stuff to peoples' faces now?
+ I used to bitch about a lot of people on my blog. Now I only do it because I really need to have it noted down somewhere
+ I used to judge people who listen to mainstream music. I still do but I don't go, "eeeeee" now. Now I just shut up and sing along to Bieber/TSwift with them.
+ I don't really tweet. I'm afraid it might turn out to be some some crude statement or comment about someone or something. I refrain myself from complaining/bragging about something, but it's hard given my snobbish personality
+ I don't think it's pride that's stopping me from talking to Raiyan anymore. It's more of fear. Fear of rejection, fear of how I'm going to do it to make it work. I love him and I always will. I'm very grateful for everything that he has done for me; cooking when the parents are gone, helping me with stuff (He said to Darth Vader, "If Sherina told me she was going for the SIA interview, I could have helped her get through to the second round.". Although it was rude of him to ignore my presence, because I was just beside him, thanks bro)
- I try my best to help strangers at times
- I started to believe in love, I think

I need to be a better person. And I'm improving, slowly but surely. I just need time. (cue Better Girl by Best Coast)

Ok la maybe I shouldn't care. I shouldn't judge people, I shouldn't correct people, I shouldn't hint to people. I shall just be a wallflower. Trust me, I wouldn't like myself either.

11 March, Monday

- Went to American Club for an interview

- Applied for universities with MND. Dad doesn't seem keen on sending me to United Kingdom though, which is a complete bummer because I prefer it to Australia. I mean they have musicals there, hello I'm a sucker for musicals

- Family din dins at Apollo

12 March, Tuesday

HAHA started work at American Club already. Had an apple and rushed to Marble Slab... to work.

13 March, Wednesday

After work at the country club, met up with the mom to go to MND again. Had lunch @ Secret Recipe after.

I was totally exhausted from my hectic schedule. And I almost died.

14 March, Thursday

I think it was a productive day; fasted, cut 6" of my hair, jogged, deposited my savings, finally topped up money on mah new debit card so that I can use it as an EZ link. It's black eh, so cool

Met the boy boy boy who started liking random pictures using my Instagram T____T

15 March, Friday

Went to ION Orchard with mother to fix my flight ticket. Then we had lunch @ TCC. Hehehehehe one of my favourite places! I had the Easter special ^^

Stayed over at the bride's house.

16 March, Saturday

Pre-wedding ceremony, home, jogged, The Vampire Diaries.

Today

Main wedding. All I did was eat and wait for time to pass. I was really exasperated because it was so hot and I don't get why Malays don't break the tradition of holding their weddings under the void deck. (it seems very cheap eh) I know they're trying to maximise the amount of guests they can invite but maintain eh. It's really very hot and loud, I cannot tank.

So I was perspiring, and perspiring, and perspiring like never before. What provoked me was when I found out that Darth Vader has sent the boys home. I was honestly so bored (and my claustrophobia didn't help at all) there that I really wanted to cry. Since I have anger management issues, I walked up to the last floor (okay, 9th was the highest) and sat there, reading my e-book, trying to calm myself down. Then I discreetly stole my mom's EZ link card and went home without telling anyone. Pew pew pew runaway bridesmaid on the loose!

But technically, I wasn't really needed there since her friends were with her everywhere she went.

___

I have been really afraid for next week to start. It's so hectic, that looking at my calendar book just scares me to death.

AC (6 hours) + x

MS (9 hours)

x

AC (6 hours) + MS (4 hours)

x

MS (9 hours)

MS (9 hours)

Then I realised that I've already reached my target for the trip -_______- can I quit both jobs now lololol. I think my MS supervisor wants to kill me by scheduling me with so many shifts.

CIAO FIT GIRL GOING TO JOG FOR THE THIRD TIME THIS WEEK WHADDUP GUISE (loljk, I stuffed my face with lots of brownies, cheescake brownies, marble cake and fried food just now)

It's 3:30am and I am too stoked about the trip that I have been researching about stuff to do. Universal Studios, my fourth (out of five) Disneyland, musicals, shopping. And I do not like to feel obligated to get stuff for people when they didn't offer to do the same when they travel. Like what do you expect bro, have some dignity. That's why I haven't told people that I'm leaving sneaky sneaky

It was nice to have the boy's company earlier on, though it was a short while. I don't know, walao I'm just bored and hungry now la so I'm typing nonsense ciao

23 February, Saturday

Went to Sunset Lounge and Rao gave me chocolate ice-cream and two lava cakes hehehe

24 February, Sunday

And then he gave me guava juice and oreos.

Thalhath said that I was like a little sister to him, I'll never forget this


25 February, Monday

And I wrote down some personal information of the guest on this piece of paper and I lost it. I ended work at 1am but I stayed up until 3am because Thalhath wouldn't let me go unless I find that paper. We could have easily left a trace but he didn't like the idea. I love Zumbo because he saved my life when he found that paper.


26 February, Tuesday

The maid from room 224 (most expensive suite: 10k/night) gave me chocolates and chocolate milk! Free stuff is good stuff.

Went back to the room and had an argument with Y over my change in attitude towards him. Stoopid, as if you don't know why.


27 February, Wednesday

Gym followed by a heavy dinner, good job to me, good job.


28 February, Thursday

Last day of work, so Wendy (Ashfan) called me up to Reef Club to have pasta cooked by the chef! Finally some Italian food in my tummy

Angela (Dive Manager)

1 March, Friday

Did the clearance for work stuff, caught up with people.

This is Thalhath, a great buddy

Naseem (Luggage Attendant)

Maryna (Russian Guest Relations Officer)

Humaidh (Apprentice)

I lyke dis peekcha!
Fussily/Shiyuan (Apprentice)

Henry (In Bungalow Dining Manager)

Areesh (Operator)
"Why didn't you look at the camera?!"
"It's nicer like when you don't look at the camera"

 Mezo called me to Bodu Huraa to choose what I want, to remember him by:

Impromptu decision to go to Male with Y. He gave me a bike ride. And of course I was awkward because I didn't know where to put my hands at first. Had chicken submarine for dinner! Then we went to the new Male, Hulhumale. He drove at 120 mph and it was honestly the best fun I had in so long. The adrenaline rush and uncertainty of getting hit by another vehicle, can't be put to words. Many times, I wanted to renact the scene from The Perks of Being a Wallflower where Logan Lerman puts out his hands and says, "... and in this moment, I swear we were infinite." But later he think I siao

So apparently his bike wasn't commonly found in Male because it's expensive. I mean he's so young and he already has such an expensive bike, ok can.

I guess today is the day where I quote: What happens in Maldives stays in Maldives. But a good way to start off the month of March.

On the way to Male
I know, so chio, must maintain

Munadh!! (Luggage Attendant + good friend)

Hulhumale!

Queue for bikes on the ferry

Went to the boys' room to have a surprise for Nafey

Apprentices hard at work @ 3am

HAHAHA they covered Nafey's side

Final product!

2 March, Saturday

Woke up in the morning for a jet-ski session! What's that, $350 for 15 mins? I'm sorry, I can't hear you over the sound of my free jet-ski ride.

Jailam gave me a mug that changes colour ^^
Shihad gave me a whale shark soft toy ^^
Nafey is freaking cute because I jokingly asked what he's going to give me, since I'm leaving. So he gave me one US dollars, but I declined. So I got him to buy Snickers instead. THEN THIS HUSSAIN ADAM TOOK IT FROM ME OMG.
Anwar gave me a vase ^^
Mezo gave me the bracelet and shark ^^

HEHEHE I'M A PRINCESS.

One of my besties, Ahmed (Recreation)

Went for snorkeling with Tiffany and Bob. Wasn't that good. I only saw one turtle, one Eagle Ray and one shark yawn.

Mubarik and Mezo had a mini barbecue for me at Bodu Huraa. Love them to bits.

I love everyone for sending me (and Tiffany off): Anwar, Ahmed, Bob, Jasmine, Cola.

Koki (Front Office Manager)

Fuad (Operator)

Naja (Housekeeping Supervisor)

Galih (Resort Shop) was too busy for me

Hambeh (Receptionist)

I think Zumbo looks cute here hahahaha

My bestieeeee, ZUMBO ^^
the one who never fails to make me laugh

Jacqueline (Arabic Guest Relations Officer)

Roomies (Tiffany, Clarice, Mariah)

Mr Ali Anwar

And then we have the boys who sent me off at the airport:

Jailam

Thalhath best buddy xxxxx

3 March, Sunday

TOUCH DOWN BABY! Okay okay, breakfast with the family at the food court. My first meal of 2013 in Singapore was chicken rice and it didn't live up to my expectations.

SMU Open House, dinner with the family, airport to send my chicky off (multiple sad faces). Realised I don't get to have a proper meet up with her for 3 months + 48 days sian

Hehehe Chinlay girl gets her fair share of angbaos

4 March, Monday

FINALLY GOOD FOOD @ Paul with the mother

Mom's Halibut with Herbs

Roasted Chicken Leg

Strawberry Tart

Lemon Citron Tart

Rushed to school for the briefing with Mr Fu and the other kids who went for the overseas internship. Didn't realise we spent 2 hours there. Saw ct!! But missed Shu.

Went to the slab to look for Jeremie and turns out that zq was working too. They said I was damn black :(

Impromptu meetup with Joreen, Khai and Ruiyang. $1 ice-cream, candy, telling them about the boy.

5 March, Tuesday

This was my first time getting rashes. Like ever. In my entire life.

Met up with CT for dinner at Bali Thai @ ION Orchard. The waitress was funny because at one point of time, she said to CT, "Don't play play ah." lololol

Wanted to fix my G-Shock watch @ Centerpoint but it would take 2 months sigh. Anyway she introduced me to Smoothie King and I had the green tea flavour and it was so good. Can't wait to try more more more

Went to Rockstar and saw shoes that we wanted to buy. And then these gluttons decide to have late night desserts @ Marche.

Berry Cake
Caramel + Bananas crepe

Chewy ^^

6 March, Wednesday

Papa Riche for breakfast with mom, grocery shopping.

Jeremie: Help me buy food at the foodcourt.
Me: Jeremie! Banquet is closed!
Jeremie: It has been closed for months!!!! Go downstairs la!

Walao I help him buy food then I get this kind of treatment. What is this!! Hahahah then HB and Jeremie persuaded me to join The Slab again. So whatever la, I gave in and I can't believe I did.

xie xie Jeremie

Cat nap then went to town for the video shoot with Khai and CT. From 9pm to 3am, I had sushi, BFF fries, 2.5 cookies (the size of Subway cookies), keylime pie and some chocolate cake) FAT FAT

7 March, Thursday

Oh Khai left at 3am because he was sick. Then his friend came and left too. So it was just me and CT. It was so boring. They better transfer that $42 to my bank.

2 hours of sleep, interview at the slab, early dinner and a hearty 3 hour chat with Miss Tan @ Social Sin. T___T my favourite manager used to call me Miss Tan omg I miss Jasmine la.

Swedish breakfast

Canadian breakfast

SUSHI 4 SUPPER

8 March, Friday

YAY KITTY! Didn't realise I spent the entire day with her. She passed me the souvenirs from Bangkok and Bali. The sense of achievement when I found the place: Little Pancakes @ Thomson Road.

All Day Breakfast

Peanut Butter + Bananas

We managed to walk past the famous laoban store. But we fell putty to Salted Caramel.

@ Salted Caramel

Went to town to buy movie tickets to Ah Boys to Men 2 and shopped around. She made me buy my first pair of Keds walao why like this.

I think chicky looks like a pwetty 7 year old here

9 March, Saturday
Met up with the boy @ the airport at 12am.

Only had 4 hours of sleep. Went for the Singapore Airlines interview with Kaiyi and Tiffany.

Breakfast at Old Town, worked with Jolene and Andrea and it was fun, singing black songs and all. Then G came with her boy.

Had one of the worse arguments with Jai and I think he blocked me from Facebook

Today
Spent 7 hours cleaning my room.

I only told my mom about the interview. AND SHE TOLD MY DAD. What the bloody hell. I know I wasn't cut out for it, but my dad made me sound LIKE. A. FAILURE.

Him: Why do you think you failed
Me: (oh piss off, you're clearly going to bring up one of my weaknesses) I don't know
Him: Just think. Why do you think you failed
Me: I don't know, why

And then my beloved father went on about how I wasn't confident enough. 1) YOU WEREN'T THERE. How would you know. 2) You don't know what these people look for. Even the nervous guy got in. I'm so freaking demoralised right now I hate it when people bring up my flaws.

I was totally fine about failing the interview. But it's a whole different story now. Did anyone even know that I really want it, very badly. No. I didn't tell anyone because I was afraid it would jinx my chances of getting it, or people would take it seriously and start comforting me if I failed it, making me feel worse about myself. So no one knew that I was serious about it. But I'm really fine about failing it because I was trying it out anyway, but my dad made me feel better about all of it now ^^v I'm going to drain you off your money in America (This is just irrational typing, because I am pissed off)


- My main worry is the whole university thing
- Ending things off with the boy (still pending)
- Dad owes $150, ky owes $50
- My second worry is how I'm going to go about with the scheduling of two different jobs