18 March, Monday
American Club.

I cried. Not sure what it was about, but the planner states that I did, so I did. Guess it had something to do with the boy, but I doubt it was anything serious because it was just my pre-menstrual symptoms acting up. Which can only mean one thing: my emotions were a fraud

19 March, Tuesday
Slab with Andrea + zq. She kept feeding me with fruits, cereal and yogurt n_n

Had a short walk before sending him off to the bus stop.

Summary: Conjured up one of the more serious issues with the boy. And I thought he would end things off. I guess things didn't end. And as G has noticed, my feelings might have returned.

20 March, Wednesday
- Bought some cookies from Pique Nique for Amelya
- NYDC for lunch
- Walked to Cineleisure to catch Warm Bodies
- Ice-cream @ Cold Stone

21 March, Thursday
American Club + Slab with Andrea and Jojo bee

22 March, Friday
Met Chewz and Kaiyi!!! ^^ Had lunch at Avenue Bistro @ Cineleisure. Food was alright but the service was so bad.

Exchanged her Ray Ban for my Police

Walked around, figured out that my G-Shock was never spoiled from the start.

Had Smoothie King because we are healthy people. Not really, but it's so good, my new found love. What is Boost to me now.

Dessert time @ Dean and Deluca!!!!

HER HAIR SO COOL ~~~

Croissant

Berries & Flap Jack

Sour Cherry Tart

Pool after such a long time. Won CT by luck because I really suck at pool la.

23 March, Saturday
Slab with Jolene + zq. Bought food for my dear girl because she was broke and hungry. Gladys came down for a short while and she took (and edited) this picture so that I could put it on my blog hehehehehehehe

24 March, Sunday
Slab with Trix and Syaza. Asnita came down!!!!!!!! Didn't get to take a picture with her! She has been working at Famous Amos @ Parkway Parade all along!

Dinner with family (except NS boy) at Pappa Rich.

Today
Headed down to SIM with my Danial. Met up with Kaiyi and kitty to submit our documents! Hahahaha kitty self-invited herself, so cute. Went to Katong to karaoke @ Teo Heng.

Slab with Jeremie. Gen came down and she is so skinny now!!

Another hectic week ahead. So so afraid of Good Friday @ the slab + weekends at the country club.






Mom said that she wonders how my friends can stand me, because she can't. Which gets me thinking, "Yeah, how is that possible."

- I am a snob
- I complain and judge people when I'm in no position to do so (Quoted from the boy: You don't like so many people. He also said that I like to complain T-T)
- I tweet + blog-hint about people
- How did I even get someone to like me, I really don't get him
- I am materialistic
- I'm rude to my parents, well basically my family and I have the tendency to tell them off
- I have anger management issues
- I can't do house chores for nuts (to be honest, the room attendants in Maldives said that I was slow and well, I just suck at sweeping)
- I think that my pride is more important than reconnecting the bond between Raiyan and I


But I'm trying, I'm really trying

+ I've kept the correcting of people's grammar, spelling and pronunciation to a minimal (or at least I try. But honestly, can you not use a past tense if there is a 'did' in the sentence)
+ When I was young, I used to show off to my cousins about all the things I get from my dad. Aren't I working for my stuff now? Do you see me shoving my stuff to peoples' faces now?
+ I used to bitch about a lot of people on my blog. Now I only do it because I really need to have it noted down somewhere
+ I used to judge people who listen to mainstream music. I still do but I don't go, "eeeeee" now. Now I just shut up and sing along to Bieber/TSwift with them.
+ I don't really tweet. I'm afraid it might turn out to be some some crude statement or comment about someone or something. I refrain myself from complaining/bragging about something, but it's hard given my snobbish personality
+ I don't think it's pride that's stopping me from talking to Raiyan anymore. It's more of fear. Fear of rejection, fear of how I'm going to do it to make it work. I love him and I always will. I'm very grateful for everything that he has done for me; cooking when the parents are gone, helping me with stuff (He said to Darth Vader, "If Sherina told me she was going for the SIA interview, I could have helped her get through to the second round.". Although it was rude of him to ignore my presence, because I was just beside him, thanks bro)
- I try my best to help strangers at times
- I started to believe in love, I think

I need to be a better person. And I'm improving, slowly but surely. I just need time. (cue Better Girl by Best Coast)

Ok la maybe I shouldn't care. I shouldn't judge people, I shouldn't correct people, I shouldn't hint to people. I shall just be a wallflower. Trust me, I wouldn't like myself either.