Holy. Shit.
I just broke down for 10 minutes. It was so unexpected and sudden.
- Okay actually the main reason is:
work
Had a briefing with my learning manager and Tiffany just now.
Points for me:" I talked to the Front Office managers and they said that you have very
weak (the emphasis on this word was extremely exaggerated) product knowledge. I even tested you that time on the buggy ride, remember I asked questions? I agree with them. You have very
weak (emphasis once again) product knowledge. They say that you don't ask enough questions. You just know about it when you have to know about it."
1)
"you don't ask enough questions"- How am I supposed to ask questions when majority of the time, managers come out when they ask me to go to the jetty to wave and clap for the guests during their departures and arrivals respectively. Managers are never there to see me take down notes or ask questions at reception okay.
"And you failed your buggy ride terribly! You were supposed to turn around when you're talking to me! Z and T do that when they're talking to me on the buggies you know! You even crashed me in the bushes! I told the Program Committee (all the managers, directors and most importantly, the Resort Manager) about your buggy driving."
2)
"supposed to turn around when you're talking"- How would I know. I wanted to. I had the choice of turning and risk getting warned for driving the buggy without looking at the road OR I could have turned my head slightly and focus on the road and get reprimanded for not facing the guests when interacting with them. WELL I CLEARLY HAD TO CHOOSE ONE OF THE ABOVE, WHICH I DID. I took the wrong risk. So be it.
3)
"I told the Program Committee (all the managers, directors and most importantly, the Resort Manager) about your buggy driving."- You have got to be kidding me bro. I am just an intern. What is the point of telling the upper management about my reckless driving.
You have no idea how demoralising and degrading it is and how much worse it is when the other intern actually has a good point from the managers and you have none. You have no idea.
- A best friend who doesn't give a shit. (haha this is really ambiguous)
- A boyfriend whom I haven't heard from for quite some time.
When he asked what he did to make me sad (in reference to G telling him not to make me sad), I should have told him everything. Every single thing. "You don't care like you used to anymore. You said that you would never do anything to hurt me. You said that we would keep in contact every day. You wouldn't download Skype. You have never bothered initiating a call.
You have never said that you missed me." And you still have the nerve to ask what you did to make me feel sad.
- The locals keep pestering me and I can't take it anymore. My good friend (not anymore), Jixxxx, has been WhatsApping me every single day and I'm so sick of it. I'm not even close to you, please give me some personal space.
An anonymous guy miraculously got my number and has been persistently texting me ever since even though I ignore him.
The Mexican guy thinks that it's a good idea to engage in coitus and is being a sensitive girl because I haven't been 'nice' to him since.
A guy I have been eye-fucking with every time we meet. It's like we have this love-hate relationship in real life and on social media and we're both playing each other to see who gets hurt more.
Locals who ask me to go out with them and talking to me on Facebook chat, messaging me, every single second of the day.
Worst part is 'having a boyfriend' doesn't hinder their persistence. Not a single one of them. Even the coitus guy.
- Got reprimanded by a manager for using my phone during break time. "You use your phone all the time. I should confiscate it." "I don't even use it during work." "Yeah but you're not allowed to bring it to work." "I don't even bring it to work all the time. I leave it in my room!" "No you don't! You always have it in your pocket!" LIKE YOU WOULD KNOW MY DEAR, LIKE YOU WOULD KNOW.
- I was pissed off by what happened above hence my reckless driving. My name was mentioned in the briefing for breaking 5 buggy rules, caught by the security guard. Letter was sent to Program Committee.
- Few days later, the Director of Engineering wasn't happy that I have been driving the buggy too fast. He has been giving me death glares ever since.
- A manager caught me for going to the cafeteria after gym. I cooled down until I was certain that I was sweat-free and stink-free. The people I ate with didn't even know that I went to the gym please.
On a
☀ note, I realised that Limin has always been the one who has contacted me throughout my stay here (obviously with the exception of a few days). For 2 months, she survived dealing with my nonsense, be it good or bad. I honestly thought that Zhiqiang would be the one that I would contact every day. I was totally wrong. I don't know how she does it but yay.
10q to others for being there for me too.
Oh and to 'the best friend that doesn't give a shit', thanks for putting in the effort to keep the conversation going with the 'lol' and the 'hahaha' because you think that it is such a great statement for me to reply to.
Don't go all "Your life isn't as bad as one who has to deal with the arrest of a close one." Within a span of less than two weeks, I got involved with managers and the upper management. I can't take it anymore. A bad day is a bad period.
If anyone realises that I switched the word 'death' to 'arrest', huge kudos to you. l0l im srz
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