26 January, Thursday

Michelle asked me why I looked sad. After service, so did Gladys. My workmates have also asked why I looked so sad. I guess the main reason's really dumb and I'm not sure if it's actually the reason why I feel this way.

27 January, Friday

Pot luck with the class and Ms Su.

Happy to see kitty and Limin after so long. Slacked with Limin, Chiew Ting, Yunice and kitty at Marble Slab at Causeway Point. Kaiyi joined later.

28 January, Saturday

Had breakfast at Stadium Macdonalds at 7am with parents. Sent me off at Harbourfront where I met up with the rest for the Batam trip.

- Hotel related stuff like housekeeping and front of the house.

- Checked into the room with Liting and Natasha. Gladys joined us later. We decided to ring the bell and knock on the boys doors then flee because we are that mature. We later found out that the guys in the first room got really mad. And the guys in Iggy's room were really scared. Hahahahahaha

- Napped for a little while then dinner. We got back to the room and me, Nats and kitty started dancing and singing. Sharon, Shu, Gladys and Limin joined later.

- The other girls went to bed. Heart to heart talk with Gladys and Limin at the pool.

- Singing with Limin and kitty on bus rides.

Today

I think the other activities are stupid. Like the games because we were so tired yet they wanted us to be involved from 9pm to 11pm. Shopping was also stupid because me, Liting, Nats, Gladys and Fel fell asleep on the sofas at J. CO Donuts.

“Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.”

—	Chuck Palhaniuk

Shit all my grades are dropping. I feel so tired from work. I have skipped two Understanding Tests because I wasn't able to study for them. All because of work.

This has been the worst week ever. My alarm didn't ring. I had to spend $27.35 on my cab fare. I waited half an hour for my drink at Gong Cha, which the guy did wrongly because he made green tea instead of green milk tea. Even my mom ditched me when I asked her out for lunch at town. My iPod Classic keeps crashing on me.

16th January, Monday

Service practical Understanding Test. Mr Gewi was so nice because he let us score for the section where we had to carry plates.

Had lunch with classmates (Liting, Tommy, Ben, Andrew and Nazihah) at Pizza Hut. We ended at around 12pm! Me and kitty decided to sing at Civic Centre. We didn't know it was 4 hours long so we almost died there.

17th January, Tuesday

We went to Causeway Point for lunch with Ms. Su and my classmates during break time. So we decided on Manhattan Fish Market.

Followed Liting for her interview at Resort World Sentosa. Which I regretted because I could have visited my grandfather for one last time. They said that there were rashes all over his body and he wanted to speak but no words came out.

18th January, Wednesday

He passed away at 2am. I woke up at 6am for school and saw the message. I really don't get why they didn't wake me up. They said that they thought that I had exams but I haven't even been studying for anything.

I cried like mad. I couldn't stop crying. The first person I told was Khairil because he was the last one to WhatsApp me before I fell asleep. Suprisingly he was the one who was there for me the whole time. Limin too. I want to thank all those who cared.

I miss him so much. I love you Atok. I need you back. I am so sorry for not visiting you for one last time. I am so sorry that I didn't prioritize you. I put my social life and work before you. When along you were the important one. I love you so much. Thank you for being there for me since young. I love you.

Mr Teh Tarik with my cousins and ice-cream at Macs 201 after. And then I texted X. But I never told him what happened. Instead, I set my troubles aside and helped him solve his problems.

19th January, Thursday

I also cried on the way to school because I miss him. I still couldn't believe that he's gone.

No Food and Beverage Management retest. So me, Felicia and Khairil slacked at Lawn instead of going back to class to finish our work.

Rushed home to bake Banana Chocolate cupcakes for Liting's birthday.

20th January, Friday

Did you get me a card, no. Did you get me a cake, no. I got a fake cake. Did I pay for it, yes. Lol if people didn't make the effort to celebrate my birthday, why do they expect me to put in the effort to make their birthday feel like some superior occasion ah.

21st January, Saturday

Had break with Asnita. Walked in the rain with her to Banquet at Parkway Parade and back. Hahaha. Joelle came to find me at work and passed me this Gastronomia cupcake.

The Obolo people are fun!!

Me: My manager was staring at the new girl's crotch!

Jarrett: *laughs*

Me: FUNNY MEH?!

Jarrett: Yeah the way you say very funny.

Hahaha I love the Obolo staff la.

Slacked after work with Asnita. Singing and being mad at our manager. I started to wash the stuff at 9:44pm and he was like, "Why you wash everything. It's not even 9:45pm yet." Yes 1 minute can totally gain you one more customer.

Walked Asnita to the busstop and the Obolo staff were there too. Walked back to the mall to watch Hybrid with my parents. The movie sucks. Most of the time, I was texting S.

Today

I guess a break from work. Things are better now between us. I realized that I missed him so much as a friend. ♥

Post 666.

People disappoint you. They say that they will text you but they never do. They ask you out but never get back to you. They expect a cake from you but they never got you a cake either.

People lie.

No I do not like him or anything. Just that he was really there for me when I never had to utter a word. I thought he understood me. So don't. I told you that we would forget each other because people leave. You refused to believe that. So I trusted you. I trusted that you wouldn't leave me.

I thought that you wouldn't leave me like how the rest did. I just wanted you to stay.

11 January, WednesdayAfter school, Fel accompanied me for lunch. Then I went to the school library. Skyped with Limin and she started sending me all these videos. So I ended up watching videos in the library until Liting came to give me some cake. But it was Tiramisu so I couldn't eat it since it has liquor.


Half an hour later, Faiz came to find us. Slacked then Liting had to go. So Faiz got me to watch him play Football Manager. Then he ditched me. UT clinic with Limin and Chiew Ting.

12 January, ThursdayI followed Khairil on Twitter. School was so boring so we spammed pictures.

Stayed back after class to practice service. Then had dinner with kitty at KFC and ended up at the library to rest. I don't know how this happens but whenever I miss Karthik, he will never fail to text or call me without me initiating.

13 January, FridaySkipped school and met up with the girls in the evening to celebrate kitty's birthday. My first time at Holland Village and we had Everything With Fries and then ice-cream for dessert.

14 January, SaturdayI was supposed to remove my braces today but I wasn't ready so the dentist postponed it to next month.

I was making waffles and all of a sudden I befriended these two toddlers called Glowy and Evelyn. They were so cute until they started asking so many questions. I taught them how to make the waffles. Then Charles came to visit. And the toddlers thought that he was my boyfriend. Uh ok no.

Work was so fun and tiring because people kept coming in even though we've switched off the lights for the ice-cream.

- A customer asked if Rum contained alcohol.
- Dinner with Asnita.
- Testing each other on how to make Tasty Creations.
- Letting customers try awful flavours like Orange Blossom. It really tastes like cough syrup.
- Fighting for space at the slab.
- Han Bin teasing me because I was smiling to my phone. And Asnita said that I seemed happy the whole day.

In addition to that, Gladys sent me pictures of Sir Han. My day was good.

Today

My Indian Limin. She didn't know that I pasted it there until kitty told her. She thought that I was merely pressing my finger on her forehead.

11 January, WednesdayAfter school, Fel accompanied me for lunch. Then I went to the school library. Skyped with Limin and she started sending me all these videos. So I ended up watching videos in the library until Liting came to give me some cake.



12 January, ThursdaySchool was so boring so we spammed pictures.

Stayed back after class to practice service. Then had dinner with kitty at KFC and ended up at the library to rest. I don't know how this happens but whenever I miss the best friend, he will never fail to text or call me without me initiating.

13 January, FridaySkipped school and met up with the girls in the evening to celebrate kitty's birthday. My first time at Holland Village and we had Everything With Fries and then ice-cream for dessert.

14 January, SaturdayI was supposed to remove my braces today but I wasn't ready so the dentist postponed it to next month.

I was making waffles and all of a sudden I befriended these two toddlers called Glowy and Evelyn. They were so cute until they started asking so many questions. I taught them how to make the waffles. Then Charles came to visit. And the toddlers thought that he was my boyfriend. Uh ok no.

Work was so fun and tiring because people kept coming in even though we've switched off the lights for the ice-cream.

- A customer asked if Rum contained alcohol.
- Dinner with Asnita.
- Testing each other on how to make Tasty Creations.
- Letting customers try awful flavours like Orange Blossom. It really tastes like cough syrup.
- Fighting for space at the slab.
- And Asnita said that I seemed happy the whole day yay

In addition to that, Gladys sent me pictures of SH. My day was good.

Today

My Indian Limin. She didn't know that I pasted it there until kitty told her. She thought that I was merely pressing my finger on her forehead.

If I don't have feelings for him, why do I feel jealous now.

During my holidays.

1) I got closer to someone I never thought I would.

2) I got my Dr. Martens.

3) I watched Wicked.

4) I had fun at work.

5) I caught up with many friends.

6) He's still my close (or best friend in his eyes) to me.

7) I got a BlackBerry housing that I have been yearning for ages.

Best holiday I ever had.