20 May, Monday
Met up with zq after work. Saw this bloody huge bag beside him and I acted nonchalant, and only took the Basic Theory Test book from the bag.

Me: Whatever that is, I'm not accepting it.
Zq: You have to, I have no one else to give it to if you don't accept it. (I'M LIKE WHAAAAAAT!!! He used the same comeback when I gave him his gift!!)

So he lifted up the bag and I saw "Kate Spade" printed on the corner of the carrier. "What?! Kate Spade?! Are you crazy?!". He is a prick la. I never wanted anything in return. I have this thing where I refrain myself from buying anything from such brands before I'm 21 years old. I mean like if he got me a Craftholic stuffed toy or G-Shock watch, I'd be satisfied. But no this guy just had to sweep in with this thing that I'm stuck with. (Don't get me wrong. I'm thankful for it but I really felt that there wasn't a need for him to get it for me.)

21 May, Tuesday
Sore throat + fever. But I still went to work at 6:30am anyway. Dad had to send me because I start work at 6:30am but the first bus arrives at 6:08am. So work is kind of a pain in the ass because I have to trouble my dad in the morning and at night, I have to rush to the interchange to catch the last bus. Felly was kind enough to get me a honey lemon drink before she started her shift ^^

Went home to rest for awhile and then met up with Khairil and Ruiyang for sushi buffet!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love sushi! We had 41 plates in total! Went to Istana park to chill and look at snails engaging in sexual intercourse. First two that I told my story to.

25 May, Saturday
Off to Ha Noi, Vietnam with Limin!!!

Not so good pho

Visited some red bridge

Watermelon + carrot juice for break!

And then it had to rain ~.~

26 May, Sunday

Ho Chi Minh Mausoleum

Water puppet show!!

One of our friends on the tour

BEFORE

AFTER (talk about maximising space guise!!)

Freaking good mango smoothie, that we ordered another

Supper oooolala

27 May, Monday

Off to Ha Long Bay guise

Fighting cocks (I see no resemblance)

Lunch!!

Whilst on the sundeck

Nomming on custard apple fruit

Visited the limestone cave

Kayaked

Sundeck after washing up ~^^~

Din dinz

Karaoke and dancing with the group

Htht @ night :<

28 May, Tuesday

Guten morgen

Oyster farm

OUR FAVOURITE GAME!!

Cooking lessons hahahaha

Damn good corn

BACK TO HA NOI

Claimed to be the best pho

Relaxing in some cafe

29 May, Wednesday

Hahahaha our favourite custard puffs

She stole the pillow from the plane -___-

30 May, Thursday

MAJOR SIAN

FAVOURITE FACILITATOR

Mr. Lazzo!!!

Shushu~

Kitty | Shu

bbg kitty

Xiaping | Qiaotian

Omggg qt is damn funny:
Me: Eh have you guys eaten?
Qt: No no, we full already. We see the module winner for STS we full already.

Glad to pass Amelya on the way back!

Celebratory lunch with parents at The Connoisseur Concerto at Terminal 3. And headed to work straight after. I was screwing up at work and V was so mad at me!!! Omg how am I going to be left alone to tend the shop in time to come?! I don't even know how to do closing la guys!!!!!!!

31 May, Friday
Last day at work and I was hoping to work with Hanbin. But it was the boss -.- omg. I walked to McDonald's to get our lunch. Red Peri Scorcher sucks.

Baked glace au four with the boss. Okay he did most of the work HAHAHA. We also made a bet to see who (Cheryl or Syaza) could pass the scoop test. I bet on Syaza and him on Cheryl. Cheryl tried thrice and Syaza only once. SO TECHNICALLY I WON OKAY! But he still made me treat him to Gong Cha!!!!! THIS IS UNFAIR.

Watched Star Trek with parents. Next up: The Great Gatsby and Hangover III.

Today
Okay I have never spiraled this far down before. 3 years ago, I had this conversation with my dad:

Me: But it's easy to score in Republic Polytechnic so it's not exactly a good school to be in
Dad: Okay. Then prove to me that you can do well in that school

I achieved roll of honours, (suprisingly) the module award for Strategic Thinking Skills and most importantly, the one that I was working so hard for, Diploma in Merit. I. WORKED. SO. HARD. FOR. THIS. For 3 years! I cried when I get bad grades, all because of this!!!! I got it. But look where it led me. Local universities aren't accepting me.

I was in EM1, best classes in primary school. Then I met Jane, who made me rebel. Things got worse; my primary school friends got in to Cedar Girls, Raffles Girls. I got into Ngee Ann Secondary because of affiliation. Schoolmates from EM2 got into better classes than me. I was in the second worse Express class. Then I met friends who made me rebel some more, something happened as well. Did badly for my O'levels. Primary school friends got in to Victoria Junior College, Meridian Junior College.

In poly, my friend who was "worse off" than me in primary school was offered acceptance from NUS and NTU. How does that make me feel. How did everything make me feel. I didn't even know anyone whom I regret meeting! I worked hard in polytechnic hoping that I could turn things around. Now they're telling me that I have to try again, maybe even harder.

I just lost someone close to me. My friends are getting attached and I have to be happy for them. I am happy for them but I'm just as envious as well. So I distance myself from them. It's not even their fault and I know that. I just can't be around people who remind me of what I never had.

"Hey who bought these macarons for you?"
"Oh my ex"
(Okay can.)

NOTHING GOOD HAS BEEN HAPPENING TO ME AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. I just lock myself up at home and distance myself from everyone else. I haven't felt genuinely happy for so damn long. I just want to be happy again. I just want to be happy again. I really really just want to feel happy again. Someone make this pain go away, please.