So so so pissed off with myself for straying away from my studies. I know that I can't cope, so I just give up like that. I'm so disappointed with myself so I punish myself by going on a food binge and I get so pissed off that I don't even have the mood to study anymore. It's like a cycle that never seems to end.

31 October, Thursday
Driving > business meeting

rainbow theme

1 November, Friday
Driving > work at ABC (finally after facing all the temptations at work, I brought back some stuff!)

Ricotta Cheese Bread | Orange Brioche

Halloween Horrors III at Universal Studios Singapore with Charles, Kitty and Kaiyi. Hehehe it wasn't scary at all!! The taxi queue was a killer though.

2 November, Saturday
Student Representative Council Day from 8:30am until 12am.

8:30am-5pm: Collected newspapers for charity + lunch

mom's tartlets for my friends

5pm-9pm: Bowling competition + dinner

HAHAHA SAL

VANESSA + SHERYL

9pm-12am: Supper with my business committee at Bedok 85.

I was so so worn out. I didn't see that bus 31 was approaching. I admit that it's my fault for flagging for the bus at the very last minute but when I chased after it, he slowed down but didn't stop :( WORSE PART WAS THAT I HAD TO PEE SO BADLY. So I took bus 48. Turned out that I took from the wrong direction. Alighted, found out that I missed all the last buses. Broke down.

I didn't only break down because I was lost. But because everything else started to pile up. I was tired from the entire day, I was tired from work + studies + driving, I keep hating on myself for not studying yet I refuse to study, I have been in denial for having some sort of feelings for someone.

But in actual fact, we don't text at all, he likes another girl. So um I don't know what's going on. And I pissed him off so many times because I screwed up my ways of talking to him. I get so nervous around him and it always ends up with him being mad at me and in turn, me being mad at myself for my stupidity. To be honest, I blame zq for this because he scarred me and I get all jittery when I start facing someone that I might actually like. I'm afraid that another guy would hurt me again.

3 November, Sunday
Tuition with Assiddiq's brother. Hahahaha he taught me Principles of Accounts. Kind of felt inferior for having Assiddiqs' brother teach me. Nua-ed for the entire day. Jogged.

Today
School > met up with Amira at Ion

Had dinner at Toss and Turn

Mine
(couscous, teriyaki chix, smoked salmon, chia seeds, cranberry, sunflower seeds, olive oil)

Mimi's
(edamame, red bell peppers, greens, mushrooms, smoked salmon )

surprised mimz with twg macarons! ^-^

Starbucks at Wisma Atria. Walked past this lotion shop and this crazy saleswoman started forcing us to enter the shop and try the different kinds of lotions.

Salesperson: If you buy two, I'll give you one for free.
Mimi: We'll think about it.
Me: Yeah we need to go to the toilet (lol srzly i rly needed to pee)
Salesperson: *starts getting furious* You go think then you won't come back.

Er firstly we never wanted to buy your stuff? Secondly if you know that we won't come back, why the need to say it out loud? Rude.

So had a productive discussion with Mimi on our business. We've created an Instagram account and we'd be posting our stuff on our own accord! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!

Toffee Nut Latte drinks + New York Cheesecake (which wasn't nice)

Did I mention that I think czq has moved on. Lol yeah brb going to start avoiding people because I'm strangely affected.