- Studies: yes studies are my top priority. while waiting for a friend, while waiting for council meeting, while waiting for almost anything at all, I'll just take out my stuff and start doing my notes.
It is so fucking stressful when people around me are studying 24/7, when people around me go "oh you haven't done past year papers? why are you so slow?" when people around me know the concepts way better than I do, no matter how hard I try. no. matter. how. hard. i. try.
accounting, finance, economics, maths, stats, go me
- Driving: oh my god where do I even start. one day i can do narrow course and not parking, the next day I can park but I hit the kerb when I drive through the narrow course. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME I DON'T WANT TO FAIL MY TEST I REALLY REALLY DON'T WANT TO!!!!!!!!!1
So this just happened an hour ago: (in the afternoon, i told the dad that I was going to use the car to practice)
AN HOUR AGO, MR RAIYAN FUCKING ADAM DECIDES TO ASK FOR THE CAR. AND THIS FATHER DECIDED THAT HE SHOULD LET HIS SON TAKE THE CAR?! Oh wow ^-^ and how did raiyan tell me? "eh pa can you ask sherina to use the car tmr?" WAH BRO HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT IM FREE TMR? I HAVE TWO MORNING LESSONS AND THEN I HAVE TO GO TO BUKIT BATOK TO MEET A SPONSOR FOR COUNCIL STUFF THEN I HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL FOR NIGHT LESSON FROM 7-10PM KNN LA. FUCKING JERK.
and what did he need it for? "oh my sergeant will be coming back from holiday" 0kiiie br0ski y dunch u juz take de car while ur sister suffers from mild distress from worrying about her driving test 0keh ^-^ u da best br0 5eva. cunt.
- couples. yes I still get extremely pissed off when couples get all cosy all around me. it's all the usual bullshit. you can prioritise your fucking soulmate but your friends are fucking options to you. hope you crawl on a bed of pins on yr wedding day (im kidding. i'll take back what i said when ive cooled down) and stop telling me about what he did for you or what you did for him for the love of god just stop. you wna make me feel sad right is that it. because that's what's happening. i compare my past r/s (wasn't even one) and it hurts so fucking bad.
i read the past messages yesterday. how i tried so fucking hard for it to work out but his replies were so dull. "oh then why are you blaming other couples for your pathetic r/s that didn't work out" HOW WOULD I KNOW, DO I LOOK LIKE I FUCKING KNOW SHIT.
- and then there's school: so many superficial people. to be honest i only have a handful of real friends. it's so bad that i'm so glad whenever i'm with my poly/secondary school friends. all them jc kids in my school be like "who would go rp, it's the worst school ever." "omg so gonna trash you in every subject" "omg you wear slippers to school, you're a fashionista" "omg did you just pronounce "salmon" with the "l"?" "omg eww" "omg his girlfriend puts make up ew" "lol at people who pronounce luxury brands wrongly" "did you just use singlish"
COME ON LA GUYS. very stressful being with this bunch of people.
just let me read my book, curl up in my bed and sleep :(
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